Max

Well to start off, i i grew up with an alcoholic father as well as a mother with depression, anxiety, PTSD and a few other mental health conditions. I was dropped on my head a few times as a baby and a child but it didn’t really affect me all that much. But when i was about 9 years old, i started to develop insomnia. That lead to sleepless nights followed by being tired in the day and being unfocused in school. As the years went by, i soon realised by the age of 12, i had anxiety and depression. Anxiety didn’t start to interfere with my social life until about 14. But my depression affected how i interacted with people. My mood would constantly swing from bright and happy to sad or upset. It still does to this say. My depression was kind of caused by my dad not being the father figure i needed in my life but it did teach my that i can be there for people when others aren’t there for them.
Now, with my depression, i had started to self harm in seventh grade. It affected my relationship i had with my mom a lot as well as my roommates. It didn’t stop. I did again and again and again. But as i’m writing this, i’ve been clean for 3 months now. What someone people can’t seem to quite understand about depression is that it doesn’t just go away when you want to or when you try and stay positive. No, it’s not how it works. Depression comes in waves. It comes when it does and when it wants. You can’t avoid it because you’re the one stuck in the ocean, being the victim of getting pulled under by the stress, the anxiety, the loneliness and the sadness.
Thank you for reading my story.